We were recently talking about how we can carry on with our work without big loans and trust funds, and in turn, the various ways by which people measure our “commitment.”
One thing m. said on a recent visit here to PDX which still RINGS in my ears... was something to the effect of: if you're an artist, you can't stop it. You have no choice, it's what you do.
And this is 100% true. Whatever the circumstance, no matter how much or little the money, the space, the materials, art will get made. It might not get shown. It might not get discussed, reviewed. It may never “matter’ to those who importantly opine. It might be some tiny bit of transformed paper you carry around in your pocket. But it gets made. And this, to use a new phrase, is what separates the adults from the kids.
Not about this year – I am talking about a lifetime. Because it is not that difficult to have a good idea this year and have the will to make it happen. Time has, however, a funny way to weeding out the force of the will.
I remember this especially because the person who told me that I should screw the banks and my landlord and that none of it mattered next to art making, the person who lambasted my spiritual aims since I still had a day job and no, could not quit it to just paint for several years, well: he went bankrupt. Just thought I would finish out that story.
There is, however, some indication that he will revive, like the phoenix. But he found out that even great “spiritual aims” can falter when the trust fund dries up.